Oh no .. I'm late :(

Last Wednesday I attended a class lectured by my thesis supervisor,

I take that class which name is Teknologi Jaringan Nirkabel & Bergerak .. and the schedule is on Wednesday at 1000 am. As usual before the class began he gave us some introductions on the lecture; mechanism of scoring, literatures, etc.

It is an interesting subject though .. wireless; what everybody's talking about. It's dangerous to put a limit on wireless -Marconi-. Yes I guess he forecasted far enough .. at least for this century -I believe in the next centuries-, without it we would've never made mobile conversations, data transfer via GPRS, EV-DO, EDGE or whatever the next generation networks is giving us. From the day we saw the handsets were very much alike handheld radio until the size is small enough for our palm to hold. Wheeew .. what a technology.

Many of my master degree fellows are taking it, so entering the 3rd semester is like taking regular classes -in the 3rd semester we are supposed to take elective courses, well of course for those who take the regular classes again hehehehehe-. 3 of my master fellows in WiNNER are taking it, I must take it because it's related to my thesis subject.

But I did an embarrasing moment ...

The class started a bit late since Dr.Ir. Yusep Rosmansyah had to go elsewhere prior to the class, but I was even more late. Hours before the class started I had to type my thesis draft I would present to him that day after the class has ended so I spent my time to type and later print that draft. I finished at 0930 am, after I noticed my watch I was quite surprised to see I have 30 more minutes to go to campus ... good grief, I takes 45 minutes for me to drive to campus not mentioning the traffic jams !! So right after I printed my draft I spooled up the engine and drove away.

Finally I arrived at campus at 1020 am .. 20 minutes late, it supposed to be 1000 am but I was late 20 minutes and I noticed the door was closed shut and locked. I knocked the door and he opened the door and allowed me to enter. I listened carefully to his brief descriptions about the lecture and noted some important subjects.

Later .. after he finished, he told us about his experience in UK and compared there with here. It was so contrast he told us and the students there were routinely in lab doing so many things related to their thesis and projects. While in here, lecturers who ARE busy finding students to ask their progresses. And enclosing the lecture he mentioned that in early days of classes, the students were only given the brief description, etc for not more than 15 minutes. And he said ... "well, like ONE OF YOUR FRIEND who came very late ..." then all students turned their face to me, oh man !! Where should I put my face :((

But things were back to normal when I gave my draft to him, I didn't feel anything since then. So he corrected my draft and advised me to change some contents. After that I returned to WiNNER .. I noticed there was a fellow master student -a Balinese lecturer who lectures in UNUD- told me "whew .. gotcha Dimas".

Men of Honor

I heard my thesis is also published in international forum.

Well .. this is one of the way to reach the IEEE membership (hahahahaha ...), so after some publications and signed up at it there it goes ! Of course, being a member of IEEE gives engineers a chance to formulate new standarizations for new electrical technologies launch.

Since my concentration is wireless network, the closest IEEE standarization is 802.xx -just keep in mind that 'xx' means 2 digits numbers-. Soon after I graduate, I would sign myself to IEEE so I could see what engineers are working on and what are the new specifications for emerging technologies.

Anyway that was an introduction, here comes the real point.

I called my thesis supervisor Dr.Ir. Yusep Rosmansyah about what I have in mind about my thesis, how I decided to dedicate the product of my thesis to the unfortunate people, and asked him wheter I'm doing this means I'm helping the dhuafa community. At first I was pesismist he would reply -before he replied my SMS- because it was a crazy thing to do as a student of him. Moreover, I am under his supervision .. so a false move means thesis rejection and that's a super error for a graduate student. But I got his reply somehow ...

A brief description on him ... when he was an undergraduate student -he was an electrical engineering ITB student class of 89, took both Master and Doctoral degree in University of Surrey, UK- in the 3rd year he took an OJT to PT Caltex Riau. Surprisingly his OJT was in Telecommunications Departement which was led by my father some time around '92 -I was still in Junior High that time- he even said .. 'oh perhaps it was your father who signed my OJT report'.

Back to the story,

The point of his reply was he has the same mission with me. He told me that this thesis is a form of 'establishment' which he would describe later in our meeting in WiNNER; additionally it's something we're doing in the name of Allah SWT -a thesis with a mission for the sake of Allah SWT ? Isn't that something honorable in front of Him ? I am very pleased :) -. So we are men of honor because we're doing something for Allah. Our ideas are the same, but he's my supervisor while I am his student .. that's a barrier between me and him; I cannot pass through the academic status therefore I couldn't treat him like my graduate fellows. I don't know exactly the details of what he meant in his SMS but I'll find out later ...

A Tribute to Our National Heroes

60 tahun sudah kita merdeka ...

Setelah menempuh perjuangan panjang melawan penjajah ...

Atas usaha engkau para pahlawan bangsa ...

Darah, keringat, dan airmata engkau berikan untuk kemenangan bangsa Indonesia tercinta ...

Pada 17 Agustus 1945, disitulah kemenangan atas apa yg telah engkau usahakan selama ini terwujud ...

Namun apa yang terjadi sekarang ???

Negara ini tidak berjalan seperti apa yang engkau cita-citakan ...

Sedikit sekali yang peduli dengan kemajuan bangsa ini ...

Negara kita bukannya bertambah makmur malah hampir sama dengan kondisi yang dulu ...

Jadi kalau dibilang engkau dikhianati, mungkin itu ada benarnya ...

Padahal tanpa engkau dan ridha Allah SWT negara ini tidak akan bisa mencicipi kemerdekaan ...

Sampai sekarang pun kita termasuk bangsa 'terjajah' walau tidak seperti jaman engkau dulu ...

Walaupun saya orang biasa tapi saya berniat Insya Allah bisa memajukan bangsa ini ...

Sebagaimana yang engkau mimpikan, walau rasanya mustahil bagi saya ...

Terima kasih para pahlawan bangsa, baik yang sudah gugur maupun yg masih ada ...

Miris hati saya mendengar ada yang menolak asuransi kesehatan karena tidak ingin membebani bangsa, padahal mungkin ada yang tertawa terbahak2 mendengar ucapan engkau ...

Biarkan lah mereka itu begitu, let them rot in hell ...

Walau engkau mungkin telah dilupakan orang banyak yg menikmati hasil dari perjuangan engkau ...

You are not forgotten bagi saya ...

Sekali lagi, terima kasih para pahlawan bangsa Indonesia ...

--Dimas

My god .. what have we done ?!

60 years ago ... -well not exactly 60 years ago since I am late writing this post it should be yesterday or even a week ago-

3 Allied bombers ... Enola Gay, Greatest Artist, (I forget the last one) took off from Tinian without escorts with a formation of diamond-3.

Enola Gay carried a 'special package' to be delivered onto Hiroshima, the package name was "Little Boy" the bombers crew weren't briefed on what they were carrying. They were only told that it was 'something that can bring Japan on its knee'.

The bombardier of Enola Gay however planned to arm the bomb in midair whereas the order was to arm on the ground prior to take-off. Since few days ago there were a B29 crash landed on the same airbase -considering the risk of immediate explosion- he had taken the otherwise.

On the Japan side ...

Life was running normally for most people in Japan, children went to school, men went to work at the office, even some jobs were replaced by women because most men were sent out to war. The same day the bombers took off, they were preparing for their new day ... before they realised the were about to experience the horrible tragedy they won't forget in their life.

Japan air defense systems were mostly annihilated by Allied forces. Aircrafts were either destroyed on the ground or used as Kamikaze attacks. AAA's were unable to reach the high altitude flying bombers. Thus, leaving them as sitting ducks ... the Allied waltz through Japan with ease, no significant resistance.

Now back to the bombers ...

Col. Paul Tippets as the bomber commander together as a pilot in command took his guys over 31,000 feet followed by the 2 others ... the bomb was armed and set to explode at 1,800 feet. After they passed through Hiroshima, the bombardier aimed with his bombsight and set the "Little Boy" free .. and so it went down onto Hiroshima, Tippets organized his crew to wear the polaroid google so they couldn't get affected by the bright caused by the explosion.

And then it exploded ... *BOOOM*, causing a giant mushroom explosion which rose 15,000 feet approximately.

Prior to the explosion, Greatest Artist captured the moments that turned the war. about 70,000 - 130,000 immediate death to the Japanese ... one of the bomber crew mumbled "my god ... what have we done ?!"

The bombers returned to base in piece .. not to the infrastructure of Hiroshima. After the explosion, people rushed to water sources. Obvious, who could stand the heat of thousands degree Celcius ... ?? people went to the river, they didn't care there were hundreds of casualties went into the river trying to cool his body down so the water turned red. Many people cried loud -shocked because usually things were normal but not that day- or trying to find their mates which were either died or lost or disintegrated.

Nagasaki was not different from Hiroshima, dropped from #77 piloted by Major Charles Sweeney. This one was "Fat Man" who played the role ... as the name implies, this powerful bomb smashed Nagasaki with its plutonium-implosion type. It was on 9th August 1945 while Hiroshima was on 6th.

On 15th August 1945, in Gulf of Tokyo on board of USS Missouri -The American biggest Battleship with code name BB-63 - The Allied forces supreme commander Gen. Doug MacArthur received and signed the Japanese surrender .. the war's over since then.

As for the South East Asia ... (To be continued ...)

The Owl ...

It's kind of strange to see but it's the fact,

About 2-3 days ago we were surprised by an incoming owl to our house. But it's strange ... Owls are supposed to live in jungle right ? Whereas there is no dense jungle nearby our housing complex, well as a matter of fact there is but it's too far away for that kind of bird.

Were there anyone owned that bird ? If so then why did they let it loose ?

A brief description about this little nightbird ... it has white-brown color with its sharp eyes scanning around, perhaps looking wheter there are rats running around or frogs, or whatever animals it can scrounge for dinner. Unlike many birds which have wonderful voice tones, this bird has a voice very much alike to ... errr, let's say automobile alarm "beeep beeep" -sounds funny eh ?-

So far, we haven't deciced to name that bird in case the owner finds out where it is after we claimed it as ours -we don't want and never wish for a bloodbathe just for the sake of a bird-. But my sister suggested to name it Hatchwick or so my ears caught. Or should we name it ... UNNAMED ??? *laughs*

I hope wherever it came from, it becomes our newest pet -if nobody claims of course hehehehehe >:)-.

The New Life

Continued from previous topic

Depression replaced by outgrageous offer.

There are some offers I received from my thesis supervisor, they are:

1. Being a 2nd final project co-supervisor for undergraduate students with topic related to wireless channel measuring.
2. Offered a scholarship for doctoral degree soon after I get my master degree either in Japan, UK, or back again in ITB.
3. Assigned as a general manager for a new company my thesis supervisor would establish. The aim of the company is to provide scalable ICT for rural areas with the capability to access voice, data, video communications.
4. A project composed and proposed by me and my thesis supervisor to LPPM was affirmed, we would get addition income from that and trust to implement the project nationally.

After spending nights with tears, doa, and study ... Allah SWT gives me something unreplaced by matters, Alhamdulillah. Those 4 offers I got was given to me from my thesis supervisor exactly a week after my x broke our relationship. As a normal human, I also have the feeling of loosing precious treasure. Especially a most valuable treasure on earth, it isn't money nor gold but a good woman whom I can share my life with.

But the story ended .... I must scratch finding a woman as soulmate in my list.

These challenging offers can cause good remorse or the other hand. I must take these wisely otherwise that offers can be a killer boomerang strikes back. Insya Allah, I take it wisely with new hopes.

In my whole life, I've always wanted to help the unfortunate people so they could live and prosper like other wealth citizens. It takes a lot of effort and might degrades both my physical and psychological conditions but if it's for the sake of the unfortunate people and for a better future for them generally and for Indonesian people particularly that's fine for me. I cannot taste the result of what I've done ?? Nevermind ... as long as next generation after me is far more better than present; Insya Allah I'm doing these for them and given the strength to face obstacles I would found on the way there in the name of Allah SWT with hope Allah SWT rises me to a higher degree -not always educational- and gives me Jannah He promised to all who dedicates their life for Him and believes in Him, amin ya rabbal alamin.

Alhamdulillah wa Syukurillah, You have given me a past as reflection so I could be a stronger and better human in front of You, and would never enjoy the real life without having contradictions in life.

Love and Betrayal

Now let's get to the point here ...

After being left by that girl I mentioned earlier, I tried to make another relationship once more in hope to seek a better one other than previously ... also at a distance. This time is even further, a capital of East Java if you're asking me.

I knew this girl actually long ago, when I was still running with the girl who works in a malaysian company. It was still a friendship at first I didn't have a feeling to her before but just a friend from a distance. Well, she studied in a campus located somewhere in Sukolilo .. if you ever heard of it I'm sure which one I'm talking about.

She gave me her cell number so did I ... so it was like when the first time I fell in love with someone who went away from my life forever; not coming back, not even wished to know me ever again. A brief story about my previous gf, after vaccuum for nearly a month I tried to contact her once more in hope of returning the relationship back on the rail -I knew it was mostly impossible but I tried anyway .. who knows it would work- unfortunately, instead of getting a warm welcome I got a kick on the ass; she replied as if I was a stranger annoying her ie. bad tempered. After quite long conversation, she mentioned that she's on approach with someone she knew from the net which was her senior in high school and trying to make a serious step. Plus, she told me the post titled LOVE AIN'T HERE ANYMORE I posted was full of shit, bullshits, hipocricy, putting her in the corner, etc. She discussed this with that guy and if I'm not mistaken he told her that by reading my blog seemed that I expect her to come back to me -hey, hey, hey ... if you tell me that directly in front of my face that is a mistake and could spark the fuel of war- at the epilogue of my conversation, she didn't want me to call her, SMS-ed her, e-mail her, or in short .. all of what we had done would perish in her mind and she wanted me to do the same, well .. so much for 6 years we've known each other. If I didn't reply her email back in '99, I wouldn't be as sorrow as I am now.

Back to the next girl I'm talking now ...

Days after I broke with her, I finally decided to follow the flow. I approached this girl in a hope of a new serious relationship which taking me further into let's say hmmmm ... marriage ? O, she gave me a green light .. but she daren't to take the decision because she needed to consider lot of things. Okay, I gave her time to think and rethink don't let the same mistake happens. Once we stepped into marriage it's ideal to maintain the family not crushing it like some Indonesian artists -married and divorced as easy as flipping own palm-.

Hours before I'm writting this post, I called her from my cell phone .. to my surprise it wasn't her answering my call, but .. A MALE ?? hmmm, taking positive thinking her cell might've been stolen and the thief answered my call. But if I make a generalization, errr .. it's like this my cell phone was also lost twice before now and based on my exprience after the phone was stolen it was so hard to contact the number which had been lost -the thief was smart enough to think that the 'previous' owner certainly called his lost number- not in this case, I got her tone but there was no answer. So taking the conclusion, her cell phone isn't lost; either she didn't want to answer or the guy who was talking to me didn't allow her to answer -perhaps this guy is her boyfriend .. if so, why didn't she tell me before ? IF she be frank to me days ago I wouldn't continue on- many reasons. The point is, I felt betrayed once more .... Alas!

Therefore I think I'm not taking the chance anymore. I'm sick of it.

Fortunately for me, there are many sides supporting me; my family, my sister and her husband, comrades in Battalion, Master degree fellows, etc. They all are nice to me, boy .. if I could repay all of your kindness I would, Insya Allah if there's a chance.

Battalion is like my 2nd family, superb seniors and alumni followed by good juniors and they came from different departements .. mechanical engineering, electrical engineering, civil engineering, ocean engineering, information technology, etc. Hendry Nst. (KL'98) who tailored his name as Heinrich on his PDL uniform -boy, this guy really likes German a lot-, Agung MS (IF'98) who was called as 'Singaporean Army' a dedicated ex-Battalion CO and he's running his company now together with his fellows, Eddy S(TI'99) our new CO, Rokhis (MS'01), Benny 'Benx' (MS'01) who wrote blogs as well and talked about romance things, Ucok (MS'01) .. woii awak ko kuek bana ma, aden indak amuah lari kaliliang lapangan lai udah tuo, Reza (MS'03) who always talks about bikes, engines, cars; Manan (MS'03), Jo (AS'03), David (GD'01), etc. Thank you for you all for your supports you gave to me when I was at the lowest level :)

Nooow, since I had problems regarding my romance .. TWICE, that's it .. no more. Until the Almighty Allah SWT gives me someone, I'll go by myself carry on my missions I wrote within me. I've had enough of romance ...

It's time to forget about the uncertain relationships.